If I can’t have life with Ron here then this life I am living is the next best thing. I am busy but content.
There are some who question my recovery. They wonder why I still occasionally cry. They only see the random drops that take effect without my permission. I wonder what they would say if they knew about the private ones. I will not apologise because I miss the love of my life.
I am making some headway in my healing. From the example of others in the same boat, I’ve learned to lean on God, take care to cook proper meals, exercise, reach out to others, go to an event or two alone.
I look at married couples who seem to thrive on bickering, insulting and back biting one another. I want to scream at them…some day you will regret this.
I look at those who are loving one another like Ron and I did, and I want to say…”yes, you have it right…but remember, one day you will be me. Nourish and care for one another even more that you do now, because some day, you too will be alone and wonder why you didn’t pour even more life into your marriage.)