Headway in Grief

If I can’t have life with Ron here  then this life I am living is the next best thing. I am busy but content.

There are some who question my recovery. They wonder why I still occasionally cry.  They only see the random drops that take effect without my permission. I wonder what they would say if they knew about the private ones. I will not apologise because I miss the love of my life.

I am making some headway in my healing. From the example of others in the same boat, I’ve learned to lean on God, take care to cook proper meals, exercise, reach out to others, go to an event or two alone.

I look at married couples who seem to thrive on bickering, insulting  and back biting one another. I want to scream at them…some day you will regret this.

I look at those who are loving one another  like Ron and I did, and I want to say…”yes, you have it right…but remember, one day you will be me. Nourish and care for one another even more that you do now, because some day, you too will be alone and wonder why you didn’t pour even more life into your marriage.)

Brenda Wood, author & speaker
Meeting Myself, Snippets from a Binging and Bulging Mind
 The Big Red Chair-storybook for grieving children
 Heartfelt-366 Devotions for Common Sense Living
God, Gluttony & You, the Bible Study

 

 

Living in Nazareth?

Mark 6:1-3-Jesus left there and went to his hometown, accompanied by his disciples. When the Sabbath came, he began to teach in the synagogue, and many who heard him were amazed. “Where did this man get these things?” they asked. “What’s this wisdom that has been given him? What are these remarkable miracles he is performing? Isn’t this the carpenter? Isn’t this Mary’s son and the brother of James, Joseph, Judas and Simon? Aren’t his sisters here with us?” And they took offense at him (NIV).

Jesus couldn’t do any miracles in his hometown because the people didn’t believe. They saw him as just one of the local boys and because of their incorrect belief system they stumbled and fell.

Jesus was amazed at their lack of faith (Mark 6:6-NIV)

I’ve often amazed Christ with my lack of faith. Perhaps you have too, because the only thing more awful than the things that happen to us is what we do with them.

Sure, we go to church, and quote Bible verse, but most of us live in Nazareth, at least part of the time. We don’t believe God 100 percent, especially when times are tough.  We pick and choose the parts of God’s word that we like. We whine when trouble hits.

Judges 4:21- But Jael, Heber’s wife, picked up a tent peg and a hammer and went quietly to him while he lay fast asleep, exhausted. She drove the peg through his temple into the ground, and he died.

Now what do you think Jael had done every day of her adult life? She hammered in tent pegs. She learned how to serve her Father God by doing what she needed to do, with what she had on hand, every day.

She faced the life God gave her and conquered the enemy.

 Chekov said that any idiot can face a crisis—it’s the day to day living that wears you out.

Our path might not be the one we want but it is the one God gave us. He has us where we are for a purpose.

100% living is a learned way of life.