The Aloneness of Alone

Today I am speaking in Toronto, tomorrow in Ajax. I’ve been on the speaking circuit for Stonecroft (Christian Women’s Club) for nearly 20 years but things are a little different today.

Because Ron isn’t here to map out my driving trail, Google mapping and I are now best friends. Because he isn’t here to listen to my speech, I’ve talked it into an empty room.

Two writing awards came in the mail yesterday and I had no one to share them with.

Our mail file at church is now marked RBrenda Wood. The new slip of paper doesn’t quite cover his name. It is a silent reminder that Ron used to be there but is no longer. No one would notice but me.

Grocery shopping is so painful. I didn’t realize how much time I spent looking for diabetic food or treats to encourage Ron’s appetite. The sudden appearance of a sugar-free bar of chocolate brings pangs of grief.

P.S. You know your world is too silent when you can hear yourself licking a DQ ice cream cone.

Please pray for me today and tomorow; that I will give strong testimony and that my emotions will behave themselves,  and stay under the rule of the Holy Spirit.

I am standing on these verses today.

2 Corinthians 1:3a-Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort.

2 Corinthians 1:4-who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves receive from God.