Many fellow grief sufferers offer me encouragement. Here is a note from my new friend, Gina, who reads my daily devotionals at everydaychristian.com
I am a mid-fifties Christian, grandmother, cotton-farmer in West Texas. I graduated from Texas Tech University. I’ve been a widow for nearly 12 years. It is still so fresh everyday to see how God carries me and my family through this. My weekly column “Making a Difference” runs in several Texas newspapers. And making a difference is what I want my life to always be about.
I wrote this about a month after Mike died. I wavered so often between absolute terror and peace. In the end, peace usually won out.
The closeness I had to God after Mike was gone continues to be one of my most precious memories. I hope that it doesn’t take another tragedy for me to continue to follow God so easily.I thought perhaps God wanted me to share it with you. I know a bit about what you are going through. Know that you are in my prayers daily.
I hope others can be blessed by this. Thank you so much for what you do and for being my very first read nearly every morning!
Proverbs 3:5-6- Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths (KJV)..
He shall direct my path…
Well, you know God this is not the path I wanted.
I would never have ever chosen this path, but this is where I am.
You have to know, God that while this is not the path I wanted
This is the path where you have placed me. It is the path where You are.
And I find that I want to be nowhere else but with You.
As we walk the path upon which You have placed us,
We look with eyes wide open and eyes wide with wonder
At what You have before us. And there is a calm.
To others, this path looks hard, and it is. It looks difficult to travel, and it is.
But to me God, it has become a joyous of journey of watching You work.
A journey full of faith and miracles.
As I watch my Father map it out, it becomes a journey full of bright hope
A journey full of amazement at the goodness of my God.
“Oh Father, Keep my eyes wide open. Keep my ears tuned to You.
Keep my feet moving securely For I want to miss no part of this journey that is ours.”
Gina Kelly Ellis firstname.lastname@example.org
All I can add to this is….me too. Amen